It seems that I
was wrong. That the indulging of a warped and malignant spirit was the
inspiration you had to appear to befriend me."

"Madonna, you are over-cruel," I cried out, wounded to the very soul of
me.

"Am I so?" she asked, with a cold smile upon her ivory face. "Is it not
rather you who were cruel? Was it a fine thing to do to trick a lady
into giving her affection to a man for gifts which he did not possess?
You know in what manner of regard I held the Lord Giovanni Sforza so
long as I saw him with the eyes of reason and in the light of truth. And
you, who were my one professed friend, the one man who spoke so loudly
of dying in my service, you falsified my vision, you masked him--either
at his own and at my brother's bidding, or else out of the malignancy of
your nature--in a garb that should render him agreeable in my eyes. Do
you realise what you have done? Does not your conscience tell you? You
have contrived that I have plighted my troth to a man such as I believed
the Lord Giovanni to be. Mother of Mercy!" she ended, with a scorn
ineffable; "when I dwell upon it now, it almost seems that it was to
you I gave my heart, for yours were the deeds that earned my regard--not
his."

Such was the very argument that I had hugged to my starving soul, at
the time the things she spoke of had befallen, and it had consoled me as
naught in life could have consoled me. Yet now that she employed it with
such a scornful emphasis as to make me realise how far beneath her I
really was, how immeasurably beyond my reach was she, it was as much
consolation to me as confession without absolution may be to the
perishing sinner. I answered nothing. I could not trust myself to speak.
Besides, what was there that I could say?

"I summoned you back to Pesaro," she continued pitilessly, "trusting in
your fine words and deeming honest the offer of services you made me.
Now that I know you, you are free to depart from Pesaro when you will."

Despite my shame, I dared, at last, to raise my eyes. But her face was
averted, and she saw nothing of the entreaty, nothing of the grief that
might have told her how false were her conclusions. One thing alone
there was might have explained my actions, might have revealed them in a
new light; but that one thing I could not speak of.

I turned in silence, and in silence I quitted the room; for that, I
thought, was, after all, the wisest answer I could make.

CHAPTER XIII. POISON