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arms. This was unbearable--and before he was aware of it he found he was clenching his fists in rage, and that Binko was sitting on his haunches, blinking at him, with his head on one side in his endeavors to understand. Michael pulled himself together and laughed bitterly aloud. "I must just never think of it, old man," he told the dog, "or I shall go mad." Then he sat down again. With what poignant regret he looked back upon his original going to China! If only he had stayed and gone after her, that next day, and seized her again, and brought her back here to this room--they would have had five years of happiness. She was sweeter now far than she had been then, and he could have watched her developing, instead of her coming to perfection all alone. That under these circumstances she might never have acquired that polish of mind, and strange dignity and reserve of manner which was one of her greatest attractions, did not strike him--as it has been plainly said, he was not given to analysis in his judgment of things. "I wish she had had a baby, Binko," he remarked, when once more seated in his chair. "Then she would have been obliged to return at once of her own accord." Binko grunted and slobbered his acquiescence and sympathy, with his wise old fat head poked into his master's arm. "You are trying to tell me that as I had gone off to China, she couldn't have done that in any case, you old scoundrel. And of course you are right. But she did not try to, you know. There was no letter from her among the hundreds which were waiting for me at Hong Kong--or here when I got back. She could have sent me a cable, and I would have returned like a shot from anywhere. But she did not want me then; she wanted to be free--and now, when she does, her hands are already tied. The whole cursed thing is her own fault, and that is what is the biggest pain, old dog." Then his thoughts wandered back to their scene in Rose Forster's sitting-room--that was pleasure indeed! And he leaned back in his big chair and let himself dream. He could hear her words telling him that she loved him and could feel her soft lips pressed in passion to his own. "My God! I can't bear it," he cried at last, once more clenching his hands. * * * * * And so it went on through days and nights of anguish, the aspects of the case repeating themselves in endless persistence, until with all his will and his strong
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