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s glad to sit quietly by the big fireplace. With eyes half-closed, she listened to the opening sentences. But as he proceeded, her listlessness vanished. And when he laid down the manuscript she was leaning forward, her slim hands clasped tensely on her knees, her eyes wide with interest. "Oh, oh," she told him, "how do you know it all--how can you make them live and breathe--like that?" For a moment he did not answer, then he said, "I don't know how I do it. No artist knows how he creates. It is like Life and Death--and other miracles. If I could keep to this pace, I'd have a masterpiece. But I shan't keep to it." "Why not?" "I never do." "But this time--with such a beginning." "Will you be my critic, Mistress Anne? Let me read to you now and then--like this?" "I am afraid I should spoil you with praise. It all seems so--wonderful." "You can't spoil me, and I like to be wonderful." In spite of his egotism, she found herself modifying her first unfavorable estimate of him. His quick eager speech, his mobile mouth, his mop of dark hair, his white restless hands, his long-lashed near-sighted eyes, these contributed a personality which had in it nothing commonplace or conventional. For three nights he read to her. On the fourth he had nothing to read. "It is the same old story," he burst out passionately. "I see mountain peaks, then, suddenly, darkness falls and my brain is blank." "Wait a little," she told him; "it will come back." "But it never comes back. All of my good beginnings flat out toward the end. And that's why I'm pot-boiling, because," bitterly, "I am not big enough for anything else." "You mustn't say such things. We achieve only as we believe in ourselves. Don't you know that? If you believe that things are going to end badly, they will end badly." "Oh, wise little school-teacher, how do you know?" "It is what I teach my children. That they must believe in themselves." "What else do you teach them?" "That they must believe in God and love their country, and then nothing can happen to them that they cannot bear. It is only when one loses faith and hope that life doesn't seem worth while." "And do you believe all that you teach?" Silence. She was gazing into the fire thoughtfully. "I believe it, but I don't always live up to it. That's the hard part, acting up the things that we believe. I tell my children that, and I tell them, too, that they must always keep on tr
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