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to marry them, but they could never really love them. She, Fay, carried with her the talisman. A horrible doubt seized her, just when she was becoming calm. Supposing Michael would not! Oh! but he _would_ if he cared as she did. The sacrifice was all on the woman's side. No one thought much the worse of men when they did these things. And Michael was so good, so honourable that he would certainly never desert her. They would become legal husband and wife directly Andrea divorced her. From underneath these matted commonplaces, Fay's muffled conscience strove to reach her with its weak voice. "Stop, stop!" it said. "You will injure him. You will tie a noose round his neck. You will spoil his life. And Andrea! He has been kind in a way. And your marriage vows! And your own people at home! And Magdalen, the sister who loves you. Remember her! Stop, stop! Let Michael go. You were obliged to relinquish him once. Let him go again now." Fay believed she went through a second conflict. Perhaps there lurked at the back of her mind the image of Michael's set face--set away from her; and that image helped her at last to say to herself, "Yes. It is right. I will let him go." But did she really mean it? For while she said over and over again, "Yes, yes; we must part," she decided that it was necessary to see him just once again, to bid him a last farewell, to strengthen him to live without her. She could not reason it out, but she knew that it was absolutely essential to the welfare of both that they should see each other just once more before they parted--_for ever_. The parting no longer loomed so awful in her mind if there was to be a meeting before it took place. She almost forgot it directly her mind could find a staying point on the thought of that one last sacred interview, of all she should say, of all they would both feel. But how to see him! He had said he would not come back. He left Rome in a few days. She should see him officially on Thursday, when he was in attendance on his chief. But what was the use of that? He would hardly exchange a word with her. She might decide to see _him_ alone; but what if he refused to see _her_? Instinctively Fay knew that he would so refuse. "We must part." Just so. But how to hold him? How to draw him to her just once more? That was the crux. In novels if a woman needs the help of the chivalrous man ever kneeling in the background, she sends him a ring. Fay looked earnest
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