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o I wrote! [Leaps to his feet] What could it be? Was it some kind of outside influence, a case of mental suggestion, as they call it? But from whom could it come? I was sleeping alone in that room. Could it possibly be my primitive self--the savage to whom the keeping of faith is an unknown thing-- which pushed to the front while my consciousness was asleep-- together with the criminal will of that self, and its inability to calculate the results of an action? Tell me, what do you think of it? MR. X. [As if he had to force the words out of himself] Frankly speaking, your story does not convince me--there are gaps in it, but these may depend on your failure to recall all the details-- and I have read something about criminal suggestion--or I think I have, at least--hm! But all that is neither here nor there! You have taken your medicine--and you have had the courage to acknowledge your fault. Now we won't talk of it any more. MR. Y. Yes, yes, yes, we must talk of it--till I become sure of my innocence. MR. X. Well, are you not? MR. Y. No, I am not! MR. X. That's just what bothers me, I tell you. It's exactly what is bothering me!--Don't you feel fairly sure that every human being hides a skeleton in his closet? Have we not, all of us, stolen and lied as children? Undoubtedly! Well, now there are persons who remain children all their lives, so that they cannot control their unlawful desires. Then comes the opportunity, and there you have your criminal.--But I cannot understand why you don't feel innocent. If the child is not held responsible, why should the criminal be regarded differently? It is the more strange because--well, perhaps I may come to repent it later. [Pause] I, for my part, have killed a man, and I have never suffered any qualms on account of it. MR. Y. [Very much interested] Have--you? MR. X, Yes, I, and none else! Perhaps you don't care to shake hands with a murderer? MR. Y. [Pleasantly] Oh, what nonsense! MR. X. Yes, but I have not been punished, ME. Y. [Growing more familiar and taking on a superior tone] So much the better for you!--How did you get out of it? MR. X. There was nobody to accuse me, no suspicions, no witnesses. This is the way it happened. One Christmas I was invited to hunt with a fellow-student a little way out of Upsala. He sent a besotted old coachman to meet me at the station, and this fellow went to sleep on the box, drove the horses into a fence, and up
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