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remulous face. To her relief he asked no questions, but averting his eyes talked easily on matter-of-fact subjects, not waiting for replies, but content simply to fill in the time till self-possession returned. Katrine divined as much, and did not trouble to listen. She also was waiting for self-possession, but only so as to be able to confide and be comforted. That Bedford could invariably find the right panacea for a wound was a fact already acknowledged with delight, and to-night the need of him was pressing. Her inattention grew increasingly obvious, until at length he ceased speaking, and looked down at her with questioning eyes. "You don't want to talk! Shall I stay, and be quiet, or would you rather I went away, and left you alone?" "Stay, please, _and_ talk--only, for the moment my mind is so full of one thing, that I can't think of anything else. That poor man! he's been telling me his story.--I can't repeat it, but he has also been scorching me for my interference. I deserved it, I suppose, for my self-sufficiency, but--it hurt! Growing pains! Do you remember?" "Poor little girl!" he said simply; so simply, so kindly, that there could be no offence in the familiarity. "I was afraid you had given yourself a stiff road to hoe. I've had experience in these cases, and know something about the difficulties. The trouble is that like many reformers you are beginning at the wrong end, trying to doctor his mind, whereas it's his body that is sick. Drink is a physical disease, and it's hard luck on its victims that public opinion refuses to realise the fact. Imagine a fellow being called a beast--a degraded beast, disgraceful, disgusting--all the usual terms, because he was suffering from tuberculosis or heart disease! It's unthinkable, but a poor wretch who has to fight against a physical craving as fierce as the claws of a wild beast, tearing him, literally tearing, not to be quenched except by the very poison which is going to set him craving again,--for one kindly, pitying thought, he gets a hurricane of abuse! You and I know better. We don't judge; we pity the poor fellow from the bottom of our hearts, but I say--" suddenly his voice changed to a crisp, boylike note, "don't let's talk about him to-night! It's such a ripping night. We can do him no good. Then why spoil our own time? Let's talk about happy things!" He threw away his cigarette as he spoke, leaned his arms on the rail, and tu
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