l springs of distress. Though so profound a double-dealer,
I was in no sense a hypocrite; both sides of me were in dead earnest; I
was no more myself when I laid aside restraint and plunged in shame,
than when I laboured, in the eye of day, at the furtherance of
knowledge or the relief of sorrow and suffering. And it chanced that the
direction of my scientific studies, which led wholly towards the mystic
and the transcendental, reacted and shed a strong light on this
consciousness of the perennial war among my members. With every day, and
from both sides of my intelligence, the moral and the intellectual, I
thus drew steadily nearer to that truth, by whose partial discovery I
have been doomed to such a dreadful shipwreck: that man is not truly
one, but truly two. I say two, because the state of my own knowledge
does not pass beyond that point. Others will follow, others will
outstrip me on the same lines; and I hazard the guess that man will be
ultimately known for a mere polity of multifarious, incongruous and
independent denizens. I for my part, from the nature of my life,
advanced infallibly in one direction, and in one direction only. It was
on the moral side, and in my own person, that I learned to recognise the
thorough and primitive duality of man; I saw that of the two natures
that contended in the field of my consciousness, even if I could rightly
be said to be either, it was only because I was radically both; and from
an early date, even before the course of my scientific discoveries had
begun to suggest the most naked possibility of such a miracle, I had
learned to dwell with pleasure, as a beloved day-dream, on the thought
of the separation of these elements. If each, I told myself, could but
be housed in separate identities, life would be relieved of all that was
unbearable; the unjust might go his way, delivered from the aspirations
and remorse of his more upright twin; and the just could walk
steadfastly and securely on his upward path, doing the good things in
which he found his pleasure, and no longer exposed to disgrace and
penitence by the hands of this extraneous evil. It was the curse of
mankind that these incongruous fagots were thus bound together--that in
the agonised womb of consciousness these polar twins should be
continuously struggling. How, then, were they dissociated?

I was so far in my reflections when, as I have said, a side-light began
to shine upon the subject from the laboratory table